About 7 months ago our team began our journey to Lesotho, Africa.  Lesotho is a country that is located in South Africa in the mountains.  When I was there I had a thought that God wanted me to write a letter to any future missionaries that would go to Mount Moorosi.  To be honest I thought it was kind of a fleeting thought but I still wanted to write it, so I did.  I wrote about what we did there and some of the strongholds and some contacts we found and left my email in case someone came across it. I left  it with the people who housed us. 

Well a few days ago I received an email from some missionaries in South Africa who recently visited Lesotho.  They told me that upon their visits a local there gave them my hand written letter!! They said they are planning on building a church there for that specific community.  That church will also function as school during the week.  They told me that they were so encouraged by the letter and that it further confirmed where God was sending them!

Wow God is so good!  I am so glad that we were able to pray and prepare that place for these missionaries to come.  

Before I left for this trip two woman in my intercession group prayed over me and I had a vision of two hearts. The hearts were mirror images of one another. For the first few days of my trip I continued to ask God what it meant. I was thinking that it meant that Christ wants to reflect his heart with Haiti, for them to be one with His heart and one with His passions.

As our days went on there we prayed over several places. We began each morning with our alone time with God, then worship in our group, then prayer, and then went out into the city. I really enjoyed praying over the 3 government buildings that were destroyed during the earthquake. The three buildings were the Presidential Palace, Justice, and Legislation buildings. It was phenomenal to pray over them. Definitely my favorite day! While we were there we just heard about how corrupt the government was and I was able to pray for a new foundation for these buildings. A foundation built on God's justice and His righteousness! When I was praying for the Legislation building I had this thought of another building being there and it actually reminded me of a small college. My prayers took a turn to pray for college students and young people to be inspired to change their nation, that they would grow up to be people who fight for the poor and for justice. I felt honored to be there and pray for a foundation on God's truth.

 

Pastor Dan also told us about the girl that was walking around with us, Jesula. When the earthquake happened the other house mother ran away and 18-year old Jesula stepped up and took car of the 46 orphans for 10 days until Pastor Kelly could arrive on site. During that time she did this the community around them stole all of their food yet Jesula was able to keep the orphan girls safe. This girl is incredible...think about what you were doing at 18. She is truly a hero. Here is Seth's blog with the full story:

http://www.sethbarnes.com/?filename=18-yearold-a-mother-to-45-orphans

Our prayer team praying over Jesula!

The first night I arrived in Port-Au-Prince we went straight to Pastor Christian's house and met Lanny and Geftay. That night our conversation unfolded from our testimonies to a pretty much a bible study. Lanny and Geftay were preaching to us. And it was so cool because sometimes you think oh I am just arriving a this house but most of the time God has His own plan. I do not think anyone thought we are about to have divine appointment. We were just talking about God and when a group of people do that and English is being translated into Creole and Creole into English it is such an amazing thing to see. Seeing all 8 people on the porch talking in different languages and from different background yet all rejoicing in the goodness of God is an heavenly sight. Lanny would say something about John the Baptist and then Geftay would talk about God's voice and then Lanny would say "Wow that's good I need to write that down." Then Geftay would translate everything for Pastor Christian and his wife Jula and she would be clapping and filled with unrelenting joy! The Holy Spirit was moving and we just arrived!

As I prayed for Haiti I kept hearing God tell me to pray for water not fire. Every time I heard anything about water I paid close attention. When Geftay was talking he talked about Jesus' first miracle of turning water into wine. He pointed out that wine was the best wine and the most tasty. And he continued to speak truth over me about how God is going to transform me into wine. Papa Lanny was like "listen to him, God is changing you." They really helped me piece together the water prayers I have been having for Haiti. I feel like God is going to change the land with His living water. And just imagine that water turning into beautiful tasty wine. The best wine ever. God is creating a New Haiti. I love being reminded of the first miracle Jesus did since it just showed God's power in such a simple way. It is time for a tasty wine, a new Haiti to arise out of the rubble.

"This, the first of his signs, Jesus did at Cana in Galilee, and manifested his glory. And his disciples believed in him." John 2:11

During our time here we were able to attend a few churches and one of those was International Christian Assembly.  I was incredibly excited to be able to go to an Assembly church since those are the ones I typically go to at home!  I really thanked God for it because I know that He is slowly reintroducing to home back in the states and getting me ready for reentering the US. 

Also just being in church was awesome in itself.  A lot of times when we are doing ministry our team does not get to just go to a service and relax and be filled.  We are generally helping put on a service so it was really nice to just sit back and enjoy. 

While I was sitting in one of the services I heard the pastor announce the first meeting of the youth program that they are starting!  I was thrilled and showed up to the first youth meeting the following week.  I was able to meet with the young couples that were heading it up and pray for them and help them out with one of the meetings.  For one meeting I planned an activity that would help them begin to share about their relationship with God with their new family.  I used a bunch of photos from an outreach tool that Campus Crusade for Christ uses called Soularium.  There are several pictures and I had everyone point out the one that they felt described their relationship with God and share with the group.  It was cool because they all had different insight no matter which photo they picked.  This youth group got me excited; they are a phenomenal bunch of young adults who are going to impact the world!!

Working with them made me a 100 times more excited about coming home and working with our youth group at Eaton Rapids Assembly of God!! I am excited to come work with you all!! (Miss you guys!)

The Ukraine is definitely a different country.  When we first got here we all had culture shock just because we were in a big city again.  We are living here in Kiev in an apartment with both girl teams.  Yes there are 14 girls living together and it has been working out pretty well!!  When we first arrived here in Kiev we did not have any ministries set up but we did know a previous world racer that helped us out a ton!  He was able to arrange housing for us and he took us to a church service that had a lot of the leaders of missionary groups there.  Our search for a ministry began.  We ended up serving with a few ministries and pouring into people that we met along the way! 

One of our main focuses of ministry was helping teachers with their English classes.  Six teammates worked with two different classes and Renee and Jenni worked at a Christian early development school.  This month was definitely different with all of us doing different ministries.  God is also slowly getting me used to living at home again, well not with living with 13 other women but with everyone having different jobs and still living in community and fellowship! 

I taught English with Tonya and Stephanie and our first day was a little hard for me.  I kept having flash backs to all my tutors for English and hooked on phonics lessons!! It was kind of a weird crazy experience the first day.  After that I have a huge respect for teachers!!! Especially for my friends Leah and Matt, who both want to make a difference in the world through teaching, praise God for people like you!! You teachers our there are truly amazing!! God bless you all.  After a few days of English I got used to the students and their different personalities and the different ways of teaching them and it got easier.  I was mostly excited that we were able to help the teacher out a lot!! She thanked us a ton for helping her out.  At the end of our time there we were able to pray over her and that for me was incredible.  I really respect her and know that God is going to bless her!

We were also able to work with an YWAM team that works in a trade school.  We were able to go help them with their ministry.  The four that we worked with were from all over and they were putting on a café time for the kids that lived there.  At this school there are kids who have parents and just go during the week and there are kids who live there because they are orphans.  We just helped out that team and talked with the kids and made bracelets, played games and hung out.  That group of YWAM people really impressed me.  I was really blessed to see them in action with the kids.  I enjoyed just seeing other missionaries who care so much about the youth that they are serving!!

Yes, what you hear is true! You will travel to different nations and meet people from many cultures. You will meet little orphans and they will hug you and soak up your love. You will plan church services, preach, do construction, evangelize, pray and everything else under the sun! You will proclaim the truth about Jesus Christ and many will choose to follow. As you speak of God's freedom people will come against you but you will persevere. You will pray and intercede for the multitudes because of who God is. You will see people set free from the grasp of the enemy and turn to the light. You will see God's power as you do the good work that He has laid out for you. You will see the Holy Spirit move in ways that blow your neat little ideas of Christianity out of the water. Yes, you will see God's power work as you trek through the nations!

The thing that you would never expect is that the biggest change is you. I would have never expected to be transformed so much. Now at month 9 I am in Romania looking back at old pictures and I cannot even recognize that person anymore. Through it all God has sifted me, grinded me, put me through the fire, mended me, restored me, and THEN renewed me. The thing no one tells you or at least no one told me was that this trip will change YOU. You will NEVER be the same. Ever. Praise God!

Through this year God will move and you will see Him work. He will ask you to surrender those parts of your life that you hold on to so tightly. He will ask you to surrender your dreams for the future, your family, your friends, your (precious) time, your expectations for tomorrow, your past and most of all yourself. He is asking for all of you - every part of your heart. He is asking for it again and again. He wants to redeem those broken parts and mend those areas we tried to patch up ourselves. He is constantly filled with love and compassion for you, but He is ready to move in now and uproot those weeds that have entangled you. He is ready and waiting. Through this race you will be brought to a place of surrender. 

He will ask you to forgive those who hurt you and allow Him to take over that area with His love. He will ask you to surrender the control, the pride and the stubbornness, that you so dearly hang on to, so that He can be your faithful master. He will ask again and again "Do you trust me with this?" and continue to say "Let go my child. I did not design you to carry such a heavy burden. Surrender it to me." Finally, when you find yourself weary and exhausted of your old self and you finally realize that every attempt that you have made to fix it or repair the damage has failed, you let go. You begin to realize that HE is the designer. 

Will you surrender? Or will you hold on to the past?

When you come to a place of true surrender and find your cup empty and say, "Lord, I am here, mend me." He takes you and romances your heart. As you trust Him with your broken, battered and bruised heart He goes to work. He begins to take off those man made patches that we used so desperately to patch up our own heart wounds and He meshes His heart with yours. He begins to heal those holes in your heart. Where your heart is weak His is stronger. Your hearts begin to beat as one. He strengthens your gifts and begins to reveal to you more of Him. He is going to bring up the bad and evil things that have happened in the past not to be cruel but to solely redeem them. He is going to show you how He designed you to work in those areas. Although this process is painful, vulnerable and messy He is good, perfect and faithful. Let's face it; He knows what He's doing.

He will show you the roots of the anger, envy, jealousy, selfishness, inadequacies and guilt that are surrounding you. He wants to tear those strongholds down so that you walk in victory in those areas that the enemy is trying to paralyze you in!   God is tearing them down to lead you to victory.

He is showing you what it means to be grafted in. He is digging deep to every lie that you believe about yourself. He is going after those generational curses. He is searching after every hurt people have caused you. He is looking for all those insecurities so that He can show you who He claims you as, who He says you are, what your identity is in His power and to show you the authority that you walk in. All of this is not by confidence in you but in Him, in His name and His glory.  He wants to show you what He can do. 

So when you go on this trip, remember that you are signing up for your hearts to be wrecked and broken and to love like God loves, You are signing up to be transformed by the designer. He will lead you, transform you, mold you, put you through the fire and make you new. Will you go? Actually, Are you ready?

Summary

Will you go?

1)     Brokenness- you will be sifted, grinded and put through the fire

2)     Trusting Him- Will you let Him work? Surrender

3)     Roots- tear down strongholds out

4)    Identity- Rebuild

5)     Victory- Walk in victory and in God's authority

This month my team found ourselves with an unusual assignment. We were asked to help in the main house with serving our squad. In my head I thought "Serving?!? So that IS our ministry? God what's going on here?!" Serving to me felt so foreign. I really had to take time the first night to process this hefty task. To some of you out there you are jumping off your seats to serve people, you enjoy preparing meals and seeing people satisfied by your hard work. Well I am on the opposite end of that spectrum. I really enjoy receiving. I enjoy allowing those who like to serve to serve me and I receive what ever is being served with great delight! Yeah I felt like God was just laughing at my thought process at the beginning of this month. He is pretty funny!

After the first night of serving I sat down with God and just began to ask Him why do I have such a hard time humbling myself to serve others. I began to write down all the lies that I believed about serving...and there was quite a list. Here are some of them:

ˇ        People who serve are seeking approval from others

ˇ        Those who serve are really perfectionists who just do things themselves because they will do it the right way

ˇ        That serving people is only cooking and cleaning

ˇ        People who serve do not take care of themselves

ˇ        People who serve do not receive well

As I wrote down a lot of these lies and more I realized that I really need to look at how Jesus served people. I began to go through verses of being a servant and how Jesus humbled himself to save us. 

"...even as the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many." Matthew 20:28

In 1 Corinthians chapter 9 verse 19 Paul writes "For though I am free from all, I have made myself a servant to all, that I might win more of them."

These scriptures really began to show me if I want to be like Jesus I need to humble myself FAST and serve people like He did. Throughout this last week as I have been serving people and looking up how Jesus served I have just been completely impressed with Him! He gave up everything to serve people because He loves us. I have met all kinds of people and there are some...let's say interesting personalities (you know what I am talking about) and honestly would be excruciatingly hard to serve yet Jesus died for them too! And Paul said that he would gladly make himself a servant to all to show the way to Jesus!

All in all I am learning A LOT to say the least. I am learning that I can serve in a multitude of ways that are truly enjoyable to me. I was able to help a woman pick potatoes (pic above) and I also made way to many donuts for our squad with Jenni (pic to left). I praise God for stretching me and allowing me to take this time in Romania to learn and really absorb what He is trying to teach me.

Thanks for reading!!